Monday, July 31, 2006 5:32:00 PM

I don't noe... I feel as if the root of my many problems come from one day of my life---the day I got my first Chinese homework......I didn't understand her and didn't do and then it got worse and worse, I got into more and more trouble till I am where I am now... But somehow I both regret and don't regret I. Cause if I had not made that mistake I wouldn't have meet so many ppl like Donkey, Private Ma, Siefen, ShangYi, Jolyn, Yuxi, ShiChie, etc. But the problems that choice brought along with it is now taking a Hugh toll on me. I feel as if somehow God is trying to tell me something, but i don't noe how to get rid of my bad habits. Somehow all this trouble make me think, and think. And the more i think the worse i feel. I noe some ppl think that my life is like a bed of roses or that i am always happy, but i noe that inside i am almost constantly tormented my choices i have made. i noe i can't do anything abt them and that i have to start making new choices that are good.

My heart is now confused. i don't want to say anything but it is another problem that is going to bug me till i sort through my life. After first 3 months, i don't want to make the same mistake. i should get my head and heart out of there. Maybe that's where my troubles originate from...............


So would ya be my friend?